lørdag 21. januar 2012

The quietude

I'm an emotional person. I feel things very strongly and I think a lot, I overanalyse and I have all these thoughts buzzing around in my head; I call them my thought flies. You see, I don't kill flies that come into my home unannounced, but I sometimes try to catch them and set them free because they can be very loud and overwhelming. But then they find a mirror. You know when that happens, a fly finds a mirror and suddenly it's quiet for hours on end, and to me you are that mirror. When I'm with you the buzzing quiets down and I'm right there in that exact moment, which is something that never happens to me, I'm always stuck in the past or the distant future, but you make me present. And so I guess I miss that, together with all the other things, that night and those hours, your hands and your voice; I miss the quietude, because the flies won't shut the hell up and I don't know how long I can take it.

4 kommentarer:

  1. I understand that feeling so well- being in the past and in the distant future... I'm trying to reed my book about mindfulness, but I just can't seem to find the time, which is bullshit, but you know, I live in the past and the future and all my todays I just use on shit... Pretty much.

    And honey, I hope you find that person who'll keep them quiet all the time and let you focus on today. <3

  2. I'm sorry you feel that way, darling.

    Thank you. I hope you'll find that person as well. <3

  3. Ååååå, det var fint å si det sånn! Jeg overanalyserer så syyykt, og jeg tenker for mye i blant...

  4. Takk for det.
    Eg veit korleis det er, det kan vere ganske slitsamt. Håpar du har måtar å roe ned tankeflugene på.